I wasn't expecting this

[fluffymark]

It's very confusing and I'm a little bit scared. This journal thing. I've had this journal for just over a week now, and already virtually everyone I know has read it already. Often in great and glorious detail. Isn't that just a little scary? Heaven knows what Val thinks of all this (Hello Val if you're reading this!), her being the most prominent subject in the journal as it stands. It's like i'm running my own gossip column. About me.

I'm an exhibitionist. Aren't I?

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[fluffymark]

I'm not thinking about whether other people will mind my journal. After all, if they don't want to read it, then they don't read it.

I'm worried at how much personal stuff I'm actually willing to expose. And I'm just bemused at how many people now read it - True I told a few people (like you) about it at first, but I didn't expect everyone else to find it so soon.

Ah well. At least it keeps everyone up to date on my misadventures and saves me having to write a million long emails to everyone telling them what i'm up to.

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[eveilena.livejournal.com]

Useful, isn't it? :)

Mmmm... I did get the wrong end of the stick there.

[fluffymark]

You were half correct though eve. It did take a lot of confidence to start this. As I've said elsewhere though, my life has reach a stage where I need outside analysis of my life. I need to know what I'm doing is good or not. I need to know what people like about me and what they don't like. Not that i'm submitting my life decisions to a 'peer review' type thing ort anything like that.

Most of all, its fun. I like this. *bounce*

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[eveilena.livejournal.com]

Well, that's the idea *grin*

Yeah, I've found I've done quite a lot of approval-seeking on here as well, possibly more than I realised I was doing. The good thing though is that you generally don't get approval here that you don't deserve. There's a definite culture of bluntness in these parts.

[fluffymark]

Excellent. Thats just what i'm looking for. I want people to speak their mind. I *want* criticism. More than anything else.