Am I OK?

[fluffymark]

I think I'm beginning to lose it. I hope not, but the signs are there. I've just shuddered at realising the number of times I've asked various people the simple question 'Are you OK?' today. In all cases many times to each person. Which is getting a bit obsessive and slightly odd. Especially as I already know the answer in all cases, even before asking them the first time. So why am I asking them? And I now realise the question I've been wanting to ask, but have been subconsciously scared of doing so, and therefore projected the object question into the second person. All the time what I've really been asking is 'Am *I* OK?'. Although nobody else spotted this psychological oddity either.
As I said, I must be going nuts.

Comments

[eveilena.livejournal.com]

I think the fact that you're alert to your own possibly weird behaviour and have the wisdom to analyse it means that you're probably very far from mad. But I understand that you're scared *hug*

*........*

[fluffymark]

As you've probably guessed, I've been reading that Eric Berne book a lot again. Thankyou ever so much for it! *manyhugs*. You're a wonderful friend, eve.
And I had'nt noticed I was scared, but now you point it out - Yes.... I was very scared. I'm less scared now, but I think you mamged to get things very correct. I'm not *upset*, I've just been scared of what may happen to certain people I *love* (and there are many more of those than I'll ever let on to anyone....), and the consequences fill me with dread at times. Like this last week, I'm a little scared thing, hoping that what I fear will just go away. The thing I fear has not gone away, I've just faced the fear and mastered it. Maybe thats better that way?

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[eveilena.livejournal.com]

*hug* I would say so, definitely... you are a brave princess.

and thanks :)